Hello Friends,
Long time, no see. I wish I had something to blame it on... not that I haven't been busy... but not enough that I should have ignored my blog for 3 weeks. Such is life, I suppose. Seems like I've been having the same feeling about the lifestyle change...
So, over the past 3 weeks, I gained .2lbs, lost 1.6 lbs., and then lost 0 lbs. I am still flirting with down 35 lbs. since the beginning of the year. I shouldn't be irritated... I'm still 10 lbs. over my goal for this time of the year. I was doing so well in the beginning - super-motivated, ambitious. Now, other things have my attention. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but it's something I absolutely have to figure out how to balance my life.
I can tell you right now, this week has been particularly abysmal. I hosted a cast party for the show I was in earlier this summer at the house, and had a metric ton of leftovers that finally got out of the house today. One of my achilles' heels, though, was a cookie tray I bought at Sam's Club that was hardly touched. That tray of cookies was like having drugs around someone who was out of rehab. I know that's a pretty harsh comparison, but seriously, that's how it felt. I couldn't keep my hands off of the cookies. Even if I didn't want one. Even if I wasn't hungry. I would be walking through the kitchen and be like "ooh, cookie." And truthfully, I feel like shit. I've ate like shit, and I feel it. It's the re-introduction of large amounts of sugar to the body. I remember it from the last time I did this diet. I am lethargic, moody, and have a chronic tummyache. It's a terrible feeling, until your body adjusts to digesting or metabolizing sugar again. However, that's not really an option I'm considering going back to. So begins the official re-detox. And it will probably be equally sucky. I sit here writing the blog and want to do nothing except sit on my ass, which is totally counter-productive. *sigh*
I have about 15 more lbs. to go. I've done it at least twice over thus far. This should not be so hard. But it is. I have plateaued, and really, I think it's about finding some balance in my life.
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Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Weigh-in: Week #23
*grumble*
I am officially sick of the whole once-a-month visitor/weight gain correlation. I don't really think I helped it much this week, though. Evidently, my post-show hangover also included generally poor eating habits this week. I ended up gaining 2 lbs. this week. :(
I'm not bummed, though. I'm learning that I go through this and to be patient. It's just a pain in the ass. And that perhaps I need to help myself through these wonderful times by actually not eating like shit, like I did this week. I had wings TWICE this week! I really need to get back into the mindset of self control. That's half the battle. CHOOSING what I SHOULD eat as opposed to what sounds good. But I'm going to do better. I am going to go back to working out. B/c the alternative is not something I am ever going back to. Period.
I will say this, though... was going through my summer clothes that I bought last year to go to Myrtle Beach. I had to give away a lot of the shorts and capris. They were ridiculously big. That was a good feeling. I'm down 2 whole pant sizes since I bought them, and it really does feel nice to put on jeans from college and not feel entirely self-concious in them (or the fact I can squeeze into them is nice, too!).
So that's where I'm at this week. Taking it all in stride, but beating myself up enough to stay motivated...
Tune in next time.... ;)
I am officially sick of the whole once-a-month visitor/weight gain correlation. I don't really think I helped it much this week, though. Evidently, my post-show hangover also included generally poor eating habits this week. I ended up gaining 2 lbs. this week. :(
I'm not bummed, though. I'm learning that I go through this and to be patient. It's just a pain in the ass. And that perhaps I need to help myself through these wonderful times by actually not eating like shit, like I did this week. I had wings TWICE this week! I really need to get back into the mindset of self control. That's half the battle. CHOOSING what I SHOULD eat as opposed to what sounds good. But I'm going to do better. I am going to go back to working out. B/c the alternative is not something I am ever going back to. Period.
I will say this, though... was going through my summer clothes that I bought last year to go to Myrtle Beach. I had to give away a lot of the shorts and capris. They were ridiculously big. That was a good feeling. I'm down 2 whole pant sizes since I bought them, and it really does feel nice to put on jeans from college and not feel entirely self-concious in them (or the fact I can squeeze into them is nice, too!).
So that's where I'm at this week. Taking it all in stride, but beating myself up enough to stay motivated...
Tune in next time.... ;)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Day 4 - Urges
Greetings Everyone!
I meant to write a post last night, but never got around to it. Still going strong, and am so grateful for the support of my family and friends on this endeavor. I've always said I've been blessed w/ the best friends and family in the world, and I truly mean it! :)
Anyways, on to the fun stuff...
Yesterday was mildly frustrating. I thought this would be easier. It was the last time I tried to lose weight. Or at least it felt that way. But as my hubby pointed out, it was 2005 when I tried to lose weight the last time. I was 23, working as a waitress and a part-time busser (I had great arm muscles after that summer!!). Now, I'm 6 years older w/ a desk job that keeps me fairly sedentary, except for a brief walk to get mail.
Yesterday's food adventures:
Breakfast - A New Zealander Smoothie, which consists of a kiwi, strawberries, 2 tbsp of fat free vanilla yogurt, a cup of milk, and some ice cubes. I found, however, that there's something about a blended-up kiwi that was making my lips burn. I don't know if it was the acid in the kiwi or what, but I don't know if I'll be eating a kiwi that way again... I also had a cup of tea, no sugar.
Midmorning snack - Almonds
Lunch - Lean Cuisine Beef tips w/ a burgandy wine sauce (which again was pretty tasty.... going 2 for 2 on the yummy Lean Cuisines... good start!) and brocolli, diet coke, grapes and a few sunflower seeds.
And then, the craving for chocolate set in... and yesterday was very difficult to walk by the candy jar and not snag a little piece of chocolate.
Mid-afternoon snack - One medium apple and a bottle of water
Dinner was really hard! We decided to go to Applebee's b/c we had some gift cards to burn. And every table around me was eating something terrible, and it took all my will power to not dive head first into someone else's plate of nachos. The skinny girls in the table next to us had several cocktails and ate onion rings, fries, and a hot fudge sundae... bitches! LOL
I, however, stayed strong. I ordered a steak and shrimp fajita (came with grilled peppers and onion, lettuce, pico de gallo, tortillas, and a little bit of cheese) with a side of rice, of which I only ate half. I brought the rest home for lunch today (which I am so psyched about!!!!), and I drank a diet coke and a glass of water. The fajita was delicious and spicy and definitely took care of my craving for Mexican type food.
Once I got home and let my food settle, I worked out again on the Your Shape program for the Kinect. I did some cardio-boxing, which I really enjoyed (even if Kurt was kind of laughing at my lack of fighting skills... so I don't know the difference between a hook and an upper-cut... I do now... so look out!), some zen yoga to cool down, and played some of the fitness games. They have a hula hoop game, which proved that I am still very poor at hula-ing. Couldn't do it as a kid, can't do it as an adult either. After working out, I finished up w/ an evening snack of a banana and another bottle of water.
I feel better about things today. I know the cravings and urges are going to go away. I know this is not going to be easy. But I'm committed and optimistic and excited about it... and I think the right mindset is half the battle.
I meant to write a post last night, but never got around to it. Still going strong, and am so grateful for the support of my family and friends on this endeavor. I've always said I've been blessed w/ the best friends and family in the world, and I truly mean it! :)
Anyways, on to the fun stuff...
Yesterday was mildly frustrating. I thought this would be easier. It was the last time I tried to lose weight. Or at least it felt that way. But as my hubby pointed out, it was 2005 when I tried to lose weight the last time. I was 23, working as a waitress and a part-time busser (I had great arm muscles after that summer!!). Now, I'm 6 years older w/ a desk job that keeps me fairly sedentary, except for a brief walk to get mail.
Yesterday's food adventures:
Breakfast - A New Zealander Smoothie, which consists of a kiwi, strawberries, 2 tbsp of fat free vanilla yogurt, a cup of milk, and some ice cubes. I found, however, that there's something about a blended-up kiwi that was making my lips burn. I don't know if it was the acid in the kiwi or what, but I don't know if I'll be eating a kiwi that way again... I also had a cup of tea, no sugar.
Midmorning snack - Almonds
Lunch - Lean Cuisine Beef tips w/ a burgandy wine sauce (which again was pretty tasty.... going 2 for 2 on the yummy Lean Cuisines... good start!) and brocolli, diet coke, grapes and a few sunflower seeds.
And then, the craving for chocolate set in... and yesterday was very difficult to walk by the candy jar and not snag a little piece of chocolate.
Mid-afternoon snack - One medium apple and a bottle of water
Dinner was really hard! We decided to go to Applebee's b/c we had some gift cards to burn. And every table around me was eating something terrible, and it took all my will power to not dive head first into someone else's plate of nachos. The skinny girls in the table next to us had several cocktails and ate onion rings, fries, and a hot fudge sundae... bitches! LOL
I, however, stayed strong. I ordered a steak and shrimp fajita (came with grilled peppers and onion, lettuce, pico de gallo, tortillas, and a little bit of cheese) with a side of rice, of which I only ate half. I brought the rest home for lunch today (which I am so psyched about!!!!), and I drank a diet coke and a glass of water. The fajita was delicious and spicy and definitely took care of my craving for Mexican type food.
Once I got home and let my food settle, I worked out again on the Your Shape program for the Kinect. I did some cardio-boxing, which I really enjoyed (even if Kurt was kind of laughing at my lack of fighting skills... so I don't know the difference between a hook and an upper-cut... I do now... so look out!), some zen yoga to cool down, and played some of the fitness games. They have a hula hoop game, which proved that I am still very poor at hula-ing. Couldn't do it as a kid, can't do it as an adult either. After working out, I finished up w/ an evening snack of a banana and another bottle of water.
I feel better about things today. I know the cravings and urges are going to go away. I know this is not going to be easy. But I'm committed and optimistic and excited about it... and I think the right mindset is half the battle.
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